I don’t fear dying; I fear not living. That realization came out during a passionate conversation with my dad, and it was the first time I was able to put that feeling into words. But it’s the truth. I’ve never been afraid of my time on this beautiful planet coming to an end. What keeps me up at night is the thought of going through the motions, getting sucked into the monotony of life, and suddenly looking up to find that 40 years have passed me by without truly living.
When I read Rick Rubin’s The Creative Act, a lot of things clicked for me. He spoke deeply about how creative expression is a direct manifestation of the divinity within us—and to not honor it is doing ourselves a disservice. The idea isn’t just to create art but rather to be an artist in everything you do.
This philosophy resonated deeply with me, and I decided it was time to stop neglecting this side of me. On my birthday this year, I reflected on the past decade of my life and struggled to recall moments of real significance. Despite doing everything I was "supposed to"—I went to college, graduated, got the job—something was always missing. I felt like I was living a double life. On the surface, I had achieved all the goals I set for myself, but behind the scenes, I was an artist. A creative. That was the part of me not many knew.
For years, my creativity was my refuge. It was where I felt whole, at peace, and fully myself. It was where I could express myself without words. It was something I guarded fiercely because I didn’t want it to be put under a microscope or judged. This was my thing. It was the purest part of who I was, and the idea of letting the world in on it terrified me.
When I finally let people see that side of me, it was received so well—almost too well. I felt raw, exposed, and deeply vulnerable. My creativity was my vulnerability, and at the time, I didn’t know how to embrace that. I didn’t know how to open up or allow myself to be truly seen. I was petrified. I’d spent so long protecting this part of me that sharing it felt like losing control. But over time, I learned that being vulnerable with myself was the key to authenticity. Through patience, solitude, and lots of love, I created space to embrace my whole self—both the version of me behind closed doors and the version the world sees.
I’d finally reached a point where I felt like my two worlds had collided. The person I used to hide is the person I am, all the time. I no longer create from a place of fear, a need for acceptance, or a desire to be seen. I create from a place of simply being.
There’s no such thing as a single creative moment—life itself is creativity. Every day, every moment, is an opportunity to live fully, to create, and to honor the divinity within us. To hoard inspiration or save it for the “right time” is to create stagnation. But when we embrace inspiration as it comes and trust ourselves to act on it, we open the door for more to flow in. The signal to the station becomes clear because the frequency isn’t jammed anymore.
I think part of the challenge as artists and creatives is that we get this big wave of inspiration and want to slow-drip it out of fear that we won’t get another one. Instead of striking while the iron is hot, we end up with a bunch of half-lit embers fighting to stay alive until they eventually die out. This leaves behind half-done ideas and projects collecting dust in your closet.
We as artists are ever-evolving. Creative ideas are transitory—they’re meant to be. Never block yourself from exploring different endeavors because it’s “not your medium.”
Bro, ART is your medium. So if you’re a painter and feel called to make music, MAKE IT. It doesn’t have to sound like anything, and you don’t have to try to be something you’re not. Be you. Whatever you’re called to be in that moment, be that. But for the love of God, just get it out.
I look at it like this: there’s a reason we receive these divine transmissions. They don’t come to us by accident—they come because we are the vessels meant to receive them at that moment. The more we say yes, the more we are rewarded because the universe loves courage. The courageous are rewarded time and time again—not because they’re any better or more talented than you but simply because they’re doing it. As a dear friend of mine always says, “doing leads to more doing.”
If you don’t feel inspired, that’s cool! Start doing something, and the inspiration will come to you. It’s important to remove all filters and just because the idea that comes to you isn’t in your wheelhouse doesn’t mean to dismiss it. Instead, embrace it, learn from it, and be open to what it teaches you. Take those lessons into your next endeavor.
Creativity is about being a vessel to make something and present it to the world. No stipulations. No expectations. You have no one to impress, and you don’t have to prove yourself to anybody. But it is your duty to show up authentically in everything you do. By embracing inspiration and doing, you get to inspire others to do the same—and that’s what it’s all about.
this is good.