My Actions Got Me Here pt. 1
We can start things off in 2009 when I first decided to start rapping or we can start off in 2015 when I moved back home from NY and thought I’d probably give up on those “rap dreams.” Honestly I could start at any point but I feel it’s best to start here, current day. Because all of those past moments got me to this point.
As of late I’ve been focused on getting back to the basics. As my brother AP says “finding that childlike joy.” And lately I’ve found that joy in reading and running because those two things have been teaching me be present in the moment. After recently reading a book titled Ikigai it made me realize how much I focus on the end goal instead of the small steps it takes to reach the goal.
That’s been an ongoing theme throughout my life. I get so wrapped up in planning out the things I want to accomplish and then get upset with myself when I don’t fully follow through. It’s not that I lack motivation I’m realizing that I lack discipline. I recently saw an interview with Venus Williams and she said “when you have discipline you have freedom.” When I heard that everything started to click because whenever I’m disciplined in my running, reading and artistry I achieve damn near everything I set out to do. When I’m disciplined -that’s when I feel the most free. That’s when I get to a place where I’m creating freely, my mental is sharp and my bonds with my wife and daughters are the strongest. It all starts with my actions.
My actions got me here. Right here sounding fake deep as I write this. My discipline, my lack of discipline, my honesty and my art all got me here. But my love for creating and making genuine connections will keep me here. I knew this was a journey since the day I picked up my pencil and wrote my first rap (I can’t even remember it, paw paw has a bad memory at times). So if I’m here for the highs I have to be prepared for the lows. As a wise man once said “such is life I suppose.”
I’m getting back in my groove so here’s some new raps. Got some bars off over Cordae’s “Saturday Mornings” instrumental. I hope y’all rock with it ✌🏾
