Musing: The Adoration of Friendship and Community
You ever been so deep in the trenches you convinced yourself that’s where you’re meant to be?
Just me? Oh. lol
This baddie has been down and out, and it WAS NOT cute.
I’m currently in a place in my life where God is slowing me down and showing me how we really are here for good time, not a long time… and if you don’t prioritize living in the present it will be replaced with resentment and regret… and processing that?! Yea, the therapist has been booked.
With allll of that being said, I had lost touch with my community in the worst way. Whether it was not responding to texts/DMs, or finding meticulously ways to keep my mask from slipping, I was determined to get through it to THEN tell the tale. Girl, be so for real?
Let’s fast forward to the first week of March. I was closing out the last week of the term, wrangling toddler cats, toe nails looking like I kick rocks for a living, all while working, to then receive the news that my relative is no longer fighting cancer but surviving long enough to leave behind a life insurance policy. I truly felt like I was floating through time and space…functional freeze if you will. However, later that week would be the start of SXSW and the arrival of my sweet baby angel friends. That, was my light at the end of my distant tunnel.
From the first embraces of being reunited, to the belly ache inducing laughter, the copious amounts of coffee, family dinners, and so many heartfelt “I’ve missed you!”… I felt like myself again.
… like, when you’re deep in it you normalize ache, limited breath, stiffness, and sadness in all parts of your life…
… but once I was back in an environment that limitlessly poured into me from simply holding my hand, creating a safe space to freely speak, and having the chance to look into each others eyes and say “… a bitch has been going through it.” and it’s received with the exact sentiments… to say this healed me is not a lie.
::chat, I’m really crying in the club writing this::
To be celebrated?!?!
To be seen.
To be given the grace to come as you are, even at your worst… Ugh.
Recognized blessings in real-time.
Not only was having my community here life altering, it really helped me to shift my perspective and quite frankly, stand tf up! I feel renewed, grateful, overjoyed, and so inspired.
Also, I do want to give a special shout out to the sun setting after 7pm, discovering Lambrusco Rosso, and the free therapy you get from throwing ass in the club with your besties. Let the church say amen!
Babes, we’re not meant to do life alone and it’s time to gather it. Where’s your community? Who are your real friends? Who built the foundation? Has the lease ended?
Evaluate and move accordingly.
Bby, this week I need you to promise me you’ll put on your fav fit and go outside! Go remind them exactly who you are! Love youuu
Xoxxo,
Deley